Would you be there... ♥
Sunday, November 28, 2010
2:53 PM
I shall start of with what i'm going to write today.
Simple yet complicated, yup, relationship.
I guessed some should know that i'm stuck in a relationship that i dont know to be moving forward or backward.
And, i'm telling you people. I'm done with my life of relationship and i mean it.
For the sake of Emily, i'm going to do that cause i don't want her follow my footstep and i'm writing this blog cause i want her to know what had happened this four year between us.
27 Nov, i thought about it during that night. Having to ask myself why this is happening? Why is this turning this way..
Q1. Do you still love him?
i feel i don't love him anymore, from the day he hurt me real deep. I tried but he is just not the guy i wanted to live together with.
Q2. Why keep scolding him?
The reason i wanted to scold him is because he did thing the way that it should be told, not being initiative. What the point of it? But out of so many things that i really don't want him to do yet he still does it. I felt that i just can't live my life with this kind of person.
Have he ever wondered, if i really got to marry to him, one fine day and we got a quarrel, where should i turn my head to? Where do i bring my daugther to as i knew he would'nt care for her too.
Q3. Why still be together then?
Everything i done is just for Emily, i want her to lead a happy, with a fullfill family around her. But i'm sorry to say, i can't. What done is done, there won't be turning back even fixing it. A broken glass will always leave it's crack even if you fixed it, so what's the point?
Seems like on every important event, he bound to be quarreling with me saying that it's my fault and stuff, have he ever be in my shoes before? i guess no. Either do i.
I truly regreted giving my whole youth to him where i know my life can be better still.
I blame no one but me, this is my life, if heaven wants me to own my life this way, i shall go this way until the end.
I have told him endless time, nobody cares about me, nobody at all. i quarrel with my dad because of him, my dad wanted me to move away, but who can i find.. nobody....
the only thing i know, nobody likes me and Emily.. bully us, the next day ignore us.. what's more?
Friends? they need me they call me, they don't need they throe me aside...
and him, quarrel with me,
how i he can be better, chase after me when i turn my back off but nope. He's pissed off because i walked away.
but he doesnt know that everytime i ran away, i'm crying also.
he wont know cause he never ask at all, always wants to push the blames to me.
tired, hopeless. and it goes on. but no point too.
today, 28 Nov
i went to his house to clear my stuff away, hoping that im not in his life before. i wish he can never appear in my life again. this year shall be the last year we meet. because we tried, and yup, becasue everything was my fault not his.
I will never forget how he treated me in the past, how he said when he wanted to patch back.
It was just a dream, so perfect for me that i dont want to wake up from it.
but when i woke up is all back to square one again.
I told myself i wont cry for him anymore but i guess i still cried for morever reasons but at least both of us is better that way isnt it.
All i want to say that, Emily, im sorry girl! Sorry for not giving you a family that other children are having, sorry that you have to workhard yourself because i cant afford to give you everything like other child do.
im sorry because i love you and i dont want you to get hurt like how im now. you are always the girl i feel proud. =)
Would you be there... ♥
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
1:19 PM
ii donnoe what's happeninn recently.. kinda mood off. is like whatever all of them do is just out of my way...
ii felt regret in some way to my dad.. iim sorry but ii wouldnt dare to say out..
maybe he's right and some way ii felt it's wrong but no matter what he's my dad and ii shouldnt have put the anger on him.. what's wrong with me!!!
the world is coming to the end for me? or because imm a nobody??
yesterday before ii went to bed i told myself, how ii wish ii could die instant.. ii just hate it myself so much..
the people, ii helped so much yet nobody helped back.. yea, uu can say iim a busybody but all i wann was to get attention..
my family, both of my brothers, ii have no words to describe..
my dad, ii guess ii still donn understand him well AT ALL..
my mum, all he cares are still his sons and always put the blame on me telling me that is mine fault for not giving him freedom..
imm sorry, for a million times, but what does it help?
how i wish i can be rich, ii donn care about happiness or family bondinn..
as long as there's money, everything. and i mean EVERYTHING just make the wrold go round..
Would you be there... ♥
Monday, August 30, 2010
1:04 PM
yeahs!! finally gotten my passport on Saturday!! ♥
am still super excited about this trip coz is my first time therr.
sad to say there might be no SPA, but am gonna do it no matter what!
been stayinn home lately.. *reasons behind*
well, imm getting fatter for not going out lor.. (=.=)
This Sat going for 10courses meal.. i shall upload photos once imm free to post my blog again!
life is boring without eating! ^^
Would you be there... ♥
Friday, August 20, 2010
9:41 AM
iss urr 3rd day at work.. should be alrite for ya, now is not about me but about us..
remeber what uu promise me and donn break it. i hate liars..
dinner on 01 Sep 2010
100 bucks for me
am gettin my passport next week.. super excited~ mean can go in and shop, eat, massage and road trip again! yeahhaa~
today is FRIDAY! super love fridayy coz weekend imm free~
muahahas!
left with 20days to eighth-month.. MOONCAKE~! is always on my mind even though is not ther yet..
am still plannin on holidays! wanna go holidays and birthday overseas trip.. *found someone already* :P
*back to work* ii must finish everything on Friday! =)
Would you be there... ♥
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
1:44 PM
-17082010- ` 七月初八
*Day 1*
a new start, a new life..
i donn noe how long can this last but ii hope for long..
ii know am not a good girl but ii hope ii can change..
ii really don wann the same thinn to happened to me again.. not anymore~
so lets keep low and donn let anyone know okies.. =) ♥
missya lots ♥
been lazy and busy lately, all the outinn and event.. so no update blog nors..
but ii told myself not going out late at nite on seventh-month..
but ii still break my promises.. got to go running after chinese eighth-month le.
my gang of frens been busy with their own stuff too.. so seldom meet out le..
Review of Work Till Date:still alrite, can click with colleagues, but bosses, i donn think so.. maybe is because of my personal stuff bahs..
work load still alrite.. not really very much but ii donn like to do archiving and typing intray! borinng~!
nothing much nors.. ii can almost finish all my work within a day~ den nothing much.. and left with nothing to do le..
what i hate about office, super cold air-con like free one..
food all this i'm still alrite with it. =)
Update Again ♥
Would you be there... ♥
Sunday, July 18, 2010
6:54 PM
ii shall not say much in this entry..
photos do tell thousands words..
New Photo of HuiHui.. pretty bahs!
Went to Newton Market for supper~
went to Marina Barrage this early morning.. took picture using MeiZhi camera~
Went around Marina Bay Sand~ took a peek! ALL i can say, GRAND!
Would you be there... ♥
Tuesday, July 06, 2010
7:58 AM
ii super lazy to write blog nowaday liao le.. got to update photos, think of wat happened.. *faints*
anyway, start with Friday~!~!~!
AND yesh, Party Party Time.. super luv clubbinn, nite life =)
Went 'REBEL' with primary school friends as it was Kasey's Birthday!
there was `mii `Kelvin `KokKiong `Serene `ZhenYang `BingJie `Dominic `Vivian `XuanZhi `ChienJuen
of coz Kasey and friends.. had a supa nite siol.. dam high High HIGH!
okie, i admit i was little tispy but i still know wat i'm doing alrite!
ii going to powerhouse on Sat! =D
Would you be there... ♥
Friday, July 02, 2010
7:57 PM
Beforee ii head down to club gonna post my blog first.. been so lazy lately to post le..
xD
Tuesday; meet up with the kakis for some event..
what to do on Friday and where to go on the holiday..
but we was too excited abt friday clubbin that we forgotten abt the holiday..
bought HuiHui down to slack also..
around 2245hrs went to Arena Country Club for drinkin session..
reached home at around 0230hrs
=)
before ii reached home, went to withdraw money and saw the kitten!
it grew up le! so fast.. it was with it's mummy~
den i went home coz very tired le..
Wednesday; dinner was all my FAV! manz! coz my sister is coming that's why.. =(
full full!
at around 2300hrs, went to meet Mr.Kong den we went to lower delta road to eat prata...
muahahas! just feel hungry always..
den reached home at around 0300hrs..
Thurday; ii was so dam tired that i fall aslp once i reached home. actually promise to go jogging every thursday..
that day Lingz called me say she will meet me at this place at wat time.. i was already slping at the bed..
so the time past till it reaches 0350hrs
i woke up, see my phone! WOAHHH! lots of missed call. xD
so ps~
so i promise to go gym with her this Sunday! =)
Would you be there... ♥
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
7:38 PM
been busy this few days >.< went supper with the usual kakis `KokKiong `Kelvin `MinYee `MeiZhi and me from 2100hrs to 2200hrs
MinYee have to leave early...
after that came
`Serene `ZhenYangdiscussion topic: HOLIDAY! OVERSEAS!
we are planning on a tour with only WE! =)
it will surely be fun!!
but we have no idea where to go.. =(
ii'm so lookin forward abt it!
Would you be there... ♥
Monday, June 28, 2010
12:41 AM
Saturday` went to watch
IPman - Lengend with `
Kelvin;
ZhenYang;
KokKiong;
Andy;
Meby right,
MinYee should be coming.. by left she dint..
she shall revel the answer next time she's meeting us.. ^^
- The Lengend of IP Man-
Rating: 3/5some funny part but i thinkk so so only..
it end the show at
0200hrsthen we head home..
ii reached home at around
0230hrs bahs..
den slp le.. ^^
Early mornin at around
0700hrs, it rained~ wat a good day to slp in such a weather!
slept till
1200hrs like that woke up..
went swimmin at
0200hrs.. swim for like
1hrs30mins and my skin became this..
after swimming went to eat Carl'sJR! =D MY FAV!!!
the sauces..
chilli cheese fries and onion rings
my fren and me dam enjoyin our food! ^^
after finishing, we went shopping =) and ii was camwhoring :P
ii feel stupid wearing hat
BUT I LIKE THIS DRESS~ it cost
49.90dollar.. **faints**
in the end nv buy anythin..
reached home at around
1930hrs, and the sky was nice
bring HuiHui down to buy makan den around
2015hrs, went down to meet
Kelvin;
ZhenYang and
Yang's Galfren(only for a min)
after waving byebye, me go sit bike rounding.. xD
manage to take the pic of the moon but not the stars!
reached home at
2300hrs =)
Would you be there... ♥
Saturday, June 26, 2010
2:07 PM
This mornin one of my fren told me a stoopid joke but rather it make me laugh like hell thou..
monday` take mc, and uu go to the clinic tell the doctor that uu r havin a fever..
doctor take temperture.. Doctor; not having a fever why wann MC? uu; i'm having WORLD CUP FEVER~!~!
*Laughs Out Loud*
went to jayybee again..had my dinner there.. =)
pineapple rice
fried bun
moii fren eat crab fin soup
strawberry & chocolate ice-blanded
went there to catch the 0230hrs match..
It was Chile vs Spain and the score was 2:1
finished and done at around 0415hrs and went to do the usual stuff, washin car and pump oil..
hahas.. ii was kinda quiet that night.. also dont know why..
the moon this mornin at jaybee..
Would you be there... ♥
Friday, June 25, 2010
11:33 PM
Thiis are those movies preview that ii wanna watch.. ;)
9 Temples (1 July 2010)
9 Temples is a horror movie about one man’s journey to make amends in order to correct his bad karma by visiting 9 temples within 7 days. The journey leads him and his companions into a series of unexpected and horrific revelations.
Triple Tap (1 July 2010)
Champion competitive marksman Ken comes across an armored van robbery. He sees a policeman held hostage and shoots and kills four of the robbers. One of the robbers escapes and the policeman survives. The case is handled by Jerry Chang, whom Ken knows from having recently beaten him in a shooting match. Ken is found not guilty in court. Soon after, Ken is attacked by the escaped robber Pang Tao. Their confrontation reveals a very different background story and brings about a myriad of lies and traps and changes in relationships as Jerry and Ken try to outsmart each other.
The Twilight Saga: Eclipse (1 July 2010)
In ECLIPSE, Bella once again finds herself surrounded by danger as Seattle is ravaged by a string of mysterious killings and a malicious vampire continues her quest for revenge. In the midst of it all, she is forced to choose between her love for Edward and her friendship with Jacob — knowing that her decision has the potential to ignite the struggle between vampire and werewolf. With her graduation quickly approaching, Bella is confronted with the most important decision of her life.
The Last Airbender (5th August 2010)
Air, Water, Earth, Fire. Four nations tied by destiny when the Fire Nation launches a brutal war against the others. A century has passed with no hope in sight to change the path of this destruction. Caught between combat and courage, Aang (Noah Ringer) discovers he is the lone Avatar with the power to manipulate all four elements. Aang teams with Katara (Nicola Peltz), a Waterbender, and her brother, Sokka (Jackson Rathbone), to restore balance to their war-torn world. Based on the hugely successful Nickelodeon animated TV series, the live-action feature film “The Last Airbender” is the opening chapter in Aang’s struggle to survive.
Despicable Me (8th July 2010)
In a happy suburban neighborhood surrounded by white picket fences with flowering rose bushes, sits a black house with a dead lawn. Unbeknownst to the neighbors, hidden deep beneath this home is a vast secret hideout. Surrounded by an army of tireless, little yellow minions, we discover Gru (Steve Carell), planning the biggest heist in the history of the world. He is going to steal the moon (Yes, the moon!) in Universal’s new 3-D CGI feature, Despicable Me. Gru delights in all things wicked. Armed with his arsenal of shrink rays, freeze rays and battle-ready vehicles for land and air, he vanquishes all who stand in his way. Until the day he encounters the immense will of three little orphaned girls who look at him and see something that no one else has ever seen: a potential Dad. One of the world’s greatest super-villains has just met his greatest challenge: three little girls named Margo, Edith and Agnes.
Jonah Hex (17th June 2010)
Jonah Hex (Josh Brolin) is a scarred drifter and bounty hunter of last resort, a tough and stoic gunslinger who can track down anyone…and anything. Having survived death, Jonah’s violent history is steeped in myth and legend, and has left him with one foot in the natural world and one on the “other side.” His only human connection is with Leila (Megan Fox), whose life in a brothel has left her with scars of her own. But Jonah’s past is about to catch up with him when the U.S. military makes him an offer he can’t refuse: in exchange for his freedom from the warrants on his head, he must track down and stop the dangerous terrorist Quentin Turnbull (John Malkovich). But Turnbull, who is gathering an army and preparing to unleash Hell, is also Jonah’s oldest enemy and will stop at nothing until Jonah is dead. Based on the legendary graphic novel, “Jonah Hex” is an epic adventure thriller about one man’s personal quest for redemption against the vast canvas of the battle between good and evil.
The Sorcerer's Apprentice (22nd July 2010)
Walt Disney Studios, producer Jerry Bruckheimer and director Jon Turteltaub, the creators of the “National Treasure” franchise, present THE SORCERER'S APPRENTICE -- an innovative and epic comedy adventure about a sorcerer and his hapless apprentice who are swept into the center of an ancient conflict between good and evil. Balthazar Blake (NICOLAS CAGE) is a master sorcerer in modern-day Manhattan trying to defend the city from his arch-nemesis, Maxim Horvath (ALFRED MOLINA). Balthazar can't do it alone, so he recruits Dave Stutler (JAY BARUCHEL), a seemingly average guy who demonstrates hidden potential, as his reluctant protégé. The sorcerer gives his unwilling accomplice a crash course in the art and science of magic, and together, these unlikely partners work to stop the forces of darkness. It'll take all the courage Dave can muster to survive his training, save the city and get the girl as he becomes THE SORCERER'S APPRENTICE. The screenplay is by Matt Lopez and Doug Miro & Carlo Bernard from a screen story by Matt Lopez and Larry Konner & Mark Rosenthal.
Would you be there... ♥
12:43 PM
woahh, been busy this week full of activity! =) Simply just love this kind of life! This is my life~Tuesday; around 2300hrs, went rounding with Andy on his bike! Luvs the fast feelin and of coz excitin! ^^ reached home at around 0230hrs..we started from my house to Changi to makan den slack awhile and back home..Wednesday; went drinkin with Oyster and Gracie at Arena Country Club.. ii reached at around 2330hrs den watched soccer for awhile den after it ended, we started singing =)stay there until 0300hrs.. reached home and toh on bed liao le.. 
Thursday; went rounding again~ tiis time was with car group at around Yishun Dam. ^^ muahahahas! those guys seriously make my day that day.. reached home at around 0300hrs~ ♥ the car, ♥ the engine, ♥ the exhaust and ♥ THEM!!dinnn really take photo this few dayys.. wahahahahas~ nthh to take but next time ii will take the pics of their modify cars! ^^ *Totally forget to take =.=*but will update the photo soon i got the time..AND is Friday again! I ♥ FRIDAY! will be going to Malaysia again~ muahahas!Saturday going for Movie! and Sunday rest at home!
