e only wayy to StoP them` iss to FacE them..

2011-12-19T08:23:00.002+08:00

i tired to run away from the past; is so difficult.. no matter how many guys who made me happy, how many guys who willing to be my cup of tea, still nothing can be compared to this broken, scattered glass...
for the past last years, i thought i hold on to this beautiful glass cup of mine..
nevertheless it dropped but it was still in its original shape with some chip off..
until one day, the glass went with my heart. . .

P I E C E S

yes, even thought, i still remember this glass cup
but i know i wont use it anymore cause it made a deep cut on me and made me bleed non-stop......

2011-12-17T17:31:00.003+08:00

This few days, after I added your girlfriend, ii was stun speechless; maybe iim jealous?? I can't figure out myself. After this five years relationship, I can so called to be step out being hurt much often and not having a mad day everyday. At this moment, my mind was filled with what ii used to call uu, "bubu"~ rather funny, why we ended up calling each other bubu and buchi.
Well, those was the past. My mind did not bring out happy memories nor those sad ones..
Maybe just some songs makes me remind of uu and my whole journey together with uu :) I hated uu, yes, till now ii still but of coz ii loved uu as a whole heart before, it doesn't mean that uu are so easily forgotten. Just some random post :)

life

2011-08-22T08:37:00.001+08:00

iim endinn my life soon. ii just cant take it anymore.. iim so tired.. very very tired..

what duhz!

2011-03-14T15:01:00.002+08:00

if uu everr love somebody let them know.
this is what ii always tell my friends.. for more reasons coz ii donn wann them to regret.
imm alrite in the way, emoos some days back ago.
i knew this is a different feelinn, our personality is totally different from the first day ii knew him.
ii ony knew him for three days but the feel just kick me up. strong enoughh to miss him every single day, what i do, where i am, what i thought, is always him on my mind other then stuff..
amazing isit it.. that gut dam feelinn been in my head round and round for the first time ii met him..
"opp personality attracts the another?!"
BUT IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM.
i sense that he's findinn a better one but not me..
but ii just love the way he is. =)

Conclusions

2011-03-10T09:47:00.003+08:00

` Life, is when uu know what is right or wrong, isnt it. or not in the case, mine..
my life was knowinn the time to let go and ii did, WITH NO REGRETTED I GUESSED. (still not really clear)
yea, we all make mistake, who never made a mistake in life before?!
evenn god did..
the greatest mistake ii did?! ii killed a baby and until now ii have not forgotten about it.
ii never have any prayinn for it, ii never burn anythinn for it.
it did came to my dream, i sense it, is a boy. what done is undone..

everyday, different people in my fb is tellinn me that he/she broke up with that he/she.
what's the point in the relationship??
ii donn understand this topic for my lifetime because ii been thru lots.
TO ME; relationships - kiss, hug, movies together, sleep together, eat together, hangout together, sex..

what ii really wann in a relationship; understandinn, trust, hugs, kiss, hangout together/with friends, enjoy hobbies together, doinn things together, planninn for future (more but ii cant think more for now)
SEX IS ALWAYS NOT IN MY TOPIC but yes, i agree i enjoy it. well, donn wish to talk about it anyway.

colleague/s, one of them is cryinn almost everyday becasue she married the wrong guy, understand what i mean? coz of relationship, uu tot he is the one for uu, uu are the one for him then married. ermm, long relationship also break off someday,
Quoted from ME; "no point beinn with someone who donn understand uu and quarrel with uu for the sake of quarrel coz uu quarrel with them over small matters"
nobody is right or wrong; this is what Mr.X always tend to say, but, what he sounded is just full of hints. and that what ii hate about it, i donn care if he is tryin to push all the blame to me, or usinn wrong words to turn away, HE DONT, I MEAN IT, DONT KNOW HOW TO USE WORDS, and yet wanna quarrel so he can be on the winning side.. lafmos!!
more pathetic case would be 'shotgun', because the girl is pregnent so the guy would have to take up responsibility in order not to let people talk too much, in that case, uh-uhh! so wrong! comm'on!
nobody would married and have a baby few months later!!! that's not planninn lorr!
and yaaa, relationship, uu never try never know isit the one for uu rite!!
and what's funny about love, is lovinn one which donn love you yet the one uu donn love, love uu!
goshhhh!!

/chat soon, got to work le ^^

你是个骗子！

2010-11-29T14:15:00.007+08:00

你说过你好爱我，我根本一点都不觉得~

你说过你再也不会跟我吵架，可是你还是骗了我。

你说过你会教我沓脚车，你没有。。

你说过你会让我开心，可是你没做到。

你说过你不会再让我伤心，可是我还是哭了。

你说过以后会一起照护慧慧，可是你办不到。

你说过的东西我都记得，我已经尽量去改了，

我相信你也是。

可能你不是我想的男孩吧，

一个只想要和我继续吵下去的家伙，

一个根本不会去向未来要这样过，

一个根本不知道什么是对什么是错，

一个不会自动的家伙！！

一个根本只会生手向人拿钱的人！

一个根本不会逗女生开心的男人。。

根本不回来追，也根本不会努力的人！

他也不懂我辛苦在那的人！

为了他我付出了我的一切一切，我忍，忍。。

始终他不是我要的那个。。

e n d e d

2010-11-28T14:53:00.003+08:00

I shall start of with what i'm going to write today.
Simple yet complicated, yup, relationship.
I guessed some should know that i'm stuck in a relationship that i dont know to be moving forward or backward.
And, i'm telling you people. I'm done with my life of relationship and i mean it.
For the sake of Emily, i'm going to do that cause i don't want her follow my footstep and i'm writing this blog cause i want her to know what had happened this four year between us.

27 Nov, i thought about it during that night. Having to ask myself why this is happening? Why is this turning this way..

Q1. Do you still love him?
i feel i don't love him anymore, from the day he hurt me real deep. I tried but he is just not the guy i wanted to live together with.

Q2. Why keep scolding him?
The reason i wanted to scold him is because he did thing the way that it should be told, not being initiative. What the point of it? But out of so many things that i really don't want him to do yet he still does it. I felt that i just can't live my life with this kind of person.
Have he ever wondered, if i really got to marry to him, one fine day and we got a quarrel, where should i turn my head to? Where do i bring my daugther to as i knew he would'nt care for her too.

Q3. Why still be together then?
Everything i done is just for Emily, i want her to lead a happy, with a fullfill family around her. But i'm sorry to say, i can't. What done is done, there won't be turning back even fixing it. A broken glass will always leave it's crack even if you fixed it, so what's the point?

Seems like on every important event, he bound to be quarreling with me saying that it's my fault and stuff, have he ever be in my shoes before? i guess no. Either do i.
I truly regreted giving my whole youth to him where i know my life can be better still.
I blame no one but me, this is my life, if heaven wants me to own my life this way, i shall go this way until the end.
I have told him endless time, nobody cares about me, nobody at all. i quarrel with my dad because of him, my dad wanted me to move away, but who can i find.. nobody....
the only thing i know, nobody likes me and Emily.. bully us, the next day ignore us.. what's more?
Friends? they need me they call me, they don't need they throe me aside...
and him, quarrel with me,
how i he can be better, chase after me when i turn my back off but nope. He's pissed off because i walked away.
but he doesnt know that everytime i ran away, i'm crying also.
he wont know cause he never ask at all, always wants to push the blames to me.
tired, hopeless. and it goes on. but no point too.

today, 28 Nov
i went to his house to clear my stuff away, hoping that im not in his life before. i wish he can never appear in my life again. this year shall be the last year we meet. because we tried, and yup, becasue everything was my fault not his.
I will never forget how he treated me in the past, how he said when he wanted to patch back.
It was just a dream, so perfect for me that i dont want to wake up from it.
but when i woke up is all back to square one again.
I told myself i wont cry for him anymore but i guess i still cried for morever reasons but at least both of us is better that way isnt it.
All i want to say that, Emily, im sorry girl! Sorry for not giving you a family that other children are having, sorry that you have to workhard yourself because i cant afford to give you everything like other child do.
im sorry because i love you and i dont want you to get hurt like how im now. you are always the girl i feel proud. =)

easy come easy go

2010-11-10T13:19:00.003+08:00

ii donnoe what's happeninn recently.. kinda mood off. is like whatever all of them do is just out of my way...

ii felt regret in some way to my dad.. iim sorry but ii wouldnt dare to say out..

maybe he's right and some way ii felt it's wrong but no matter what he's my dad and ii shouldnt have put the anger on him.. what's wrong with me!!!

the world is coming to the end for me? or because imm a nobody??

yesterday before ii went to bed i told myself, how ii wish ii could die instant.. ii just hate it myself so much..

the people, ii helped so much yet nobody helped back.. yea, uu can say iim a busybody but all i wann was to get attention..

my family, both of my brothers, ii have no words to describe..

my dad, ii guess ii still donn understand him well AT ALL..

my mum, all he cares are still his sons and always put the blame on me telling me that is mine fault for not giving him freedom..

imm sorry, for a million times, but what does it help?

how i wish i can be rich, ii donn care about happiness or family bondinn..

as long as there's money, everything. and i mean EVERYTHING just make the wrold go round..

tripps excitness

2010-08-30T13:04:00.003+08:00

yeahs!! finally gotten my passport on Saturday!! ♥

am still super excited about this trip coz is my first time therr.

sad to say there might be no SPA, but am gonna do it no matter what!

been stayinn home lately.. *reasons behind*

well, imm getting fatter for not going out lor.. (=.=)

This Sat going for 10courses meal.. i shall upload photos once imm free to post my blog again!

life is boring without eating! ^^

still on going..

2010-08-20T09:41:00.005+08:00

iss urr 3rd day at work.. should be alrite for ya, now is not about me but about us..

remeber what uu promise me and donn break it. i hate liars..

dinner on 01 Sep 2010
100 bucks for me

am gettin my passport next week.. super excited~ mean can go in and shop, eat, massage and road trip again! yeahhaa~

today is FRIDAY! super love fridayy coz weekend imm free~

muahahas!

left with 20days to eighth-month.. MOONCAKE~! is always on my mind even though is not ther yet..

am still plannin on holidays! wanna go holidays and birthday overseas trip.. *found someone already* :P

*back to work* ii must finish everything on Friday! =)

aa new beginning

2010-08-18T13:44:00.006+08:00

-17082010- ` 七月初八

*Day 1*

a new start, a new life..

i donn noe how long can this last but ii hope for long..

ii know am not a good girl but ii hope ii can change..

ii really don wann the same thinn to happened to me again.. not anymore~

so lets keep low and donn let anyone know okies.. =) ♥

missya lots ♥

been lazy and busy lately, all the outinn and event.. so no update blog nors..

but ii told myself not going out late at nite on seventh-month..

but ii still break my promises.. got to go running after chinese eighth-month le.

my gang of frens been busy with their own stuff too.. so seldom meet out le..

Review of Work Till Date:still alrite, can click with colleagues, but bosses, i donn think so.. maybe is because of my personal stuff bahs..

work load still alrite.. not really very much but ii donn like to do archiving and typing intray! borinng~!

nothing much nors.. ii can almost finish all my work within a day~ den nothing much.. and left with nothing to do le..

what i hate about office, super cold air-con like free one..

food all this i'm still alrite with it. =)

Update Again ♥

Sunday Marina Barrage

2010-07-18T18:54:00.005+08:00

ii shall not say much in this entry..

photos do tell thousands words..

New Photo of HuiHui.. pretty bahs!

Went to Newton Market for supper~

went to Marina Barrage this early morning.. took picture using MeiZhi camera~

Went around Marina Bay Sand~ took a peek! ALL i can say, GRAND!

Lazyy liaoo

2010-07-06T07:58:00.008+08:00

ii super lazy to write blog nowaday liao le.. got to update photos, think of wat happened.. *faints*

anyway, start with Friday~!~!~!

AND yesh, Party Party Time.. super luv clubbinn, nite life =)

Went 'REBEL' with primary school friends as it was Kasey's Birthday!

there was `mii `Kelvin `KokKiong `Serene `ZhenYang `BingJie `Dominic `Vivian `XuanZhi `ChienJuen

of coz Kasey and friends.. had a supa nite siol.. dam high High HIGH!

okie, i admit i was little tispy but i still know wat i'm doing alrite!

ii going to powerhouse on Sat! =D

down at Rebel TonitE

2010-07-02T19:57:00.005+08:00

Beforee ii head down to club gonna post my blog first.. been so lazy lately to post le..
xD
Tuesday; meet up with the kakis for some event..
what to do on Friday and where to go on the holiday..
but we was too excited abt friday clubbin that we forgotten abt the holiday..
bought HuiHui down to slack also..

around 2245hrs went to Arena Country Club for drinkin session..
reached home at around 0230hrs
=)
before ii reached home, went to withdraw money and saw the kitten!
it grew up le! so fast.. it was with it's mummy~

den i went home coz very tired le..

Wednesday; dinner was all my FAV! manz! coz my sister is coming that's why.. =(

full full!

at around 2300hrs, went to meet Mr.Kong den we went to lower delta road to eat prata...

muahahas! just feel hungry always..

den reached home at around 0300hrs..

Thurday; ii was so dam tired that i fall aslp once i reached home. actually promise to go jogging every thursday..

that day Lingz called me say she will meet me at this place at wat time.. i was already slping at the bed..

so the time past till it reaches 0350hrs

i woke up, see my phone! WOAHHH! lots of missed call. xD

so ps~

so i promise to go gym with her this Sunday! =)

holiday mood!

2010-06-29T19:38:00.009+08:00

been busy this few days >.< went supper with the usual kakis `KokKiong `Kelvin `MinYee `MeiZhi and me from 2100hrs to 2200hrs

MinYee have to leave early...
after that came `Serene `ZhenYang

discussion topic: HOLIDAY! OVERSEAS!

we are planning on a tour with only WE! =)

it will surely be fun!!

but we have no idea where to go.. =(

ii'm so lookin forward abt it!

D`der-mint

2010-06-28T00:41:00.010+08:00

Saturday` went to watch IPman - Lengend with `Kelvin; ZhenYang; KokKiong; Andy; Me
by right, MinYee should be coming.. by left she dint..
she shall revel the answer next time she's meeting us.. ^^

- The Lengend of IP Man-
Rating: 3/5
some funny part but i thinkk so so only..
it end the show at 0200hrs
then we head home..
ii reached home at around 0230hrs bahs..
den slp le.. ^^

Early mornin at around 0700hrs, it rained~ wat a good day to slp in such a weather!
slept till 1200hrs like that woke up..
went swimmin at 0200hrs.. swim for like 1hrs30mins and my skin became this..

after swimming went to eat Carl'sJR! =D MY FAV!!!
the sauces..

chilli cheese fries and onion rings

my fren and me dam enjoyin our food! ^^

after finishing, we went shopping =) and ii was camwhoring :P
ii feel stupid wearing hat

BUT I LIKE THIS DRESS~ it cost 49.90dollar.. **faints**

in the end nv buy anythin..

reached home at around 1930hrs, and the sky was nice

bring HuiHui down to buy makan den around 2015hrs, went down to meet Kelvin; ZhenYang and Yang's Galfren(only for a min)
after waving byebye, me go sit bike rounding.. xD
manage to take the pic of the moon but not the stars!

reached home at 2300hrs =)

Soccer Feverzz

2010-06-26T14:07:00.005+08:00

This mornin one of my fren told me a stoopid joke but rather it make me laugh like hell thou..
monday` take mc, and uu go to the clinic tell the doctor that uu r havin a fever..
doctor take temperture.. Doctor; not having a fever why wann MC? uu; i'm having WORLD CUP FEVER~!~!
*Laughs Out Loud*

went to jayybee again..had my dinner there.. =)
pineapple rice

fried bun

moii fren eat crab fin soup

strawberry & chocolate ice-blanded

went there to catch the 0230hrs match..
It was Chile vs Spain and the score was 2:1

finished and done at around 0415hrs and went to do the usual stuff, washin car and pump oil..
hahas.. ii was kinda quiet that night.. also dont know why..

the moon this mornin at jaybee..

`moviess

2010-06-25T23:33:00.003+08:00

Thiis are those movies preview that ii wanna watch.. ;)

9 Temples (1 July 2010)
9 Temples is a horror movie about one man’s journey to make amends in order to correct his bad karma by visiting 9 temples within 7 days. The journey leads him and his companions into a series of unexpected and horrific revelations.

Triple Tap (1 July 2010)
Champion competitive marksman Ken comes across an armored van robbery. He sees a policeman held hostage and shoots and kills four of the robbers. One of the robbers escapes and the policeman survives. The case is handled by Jerry Chang, whom Ken knows from having recently beaten him in a shooting match. Ken is found not guilty in court. Soon after, Ken is attacked by the escaped robber Pang Tao. Their confrontation reveals a very different background story and brings about a myriad of lies and traps and changes in relationships as Jerry and Ken try to outsmart each other.

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse (1 July 2010)
In ECLIPSE, Bella once again finds herself surrounded by danger as Seattle is ravaged by a string of mysterious killings and a malicious vampire continues her quest for revenge. In the midst of it all, she is forced to choose between her love for Edward and her friendship with Jacob — knowing that her decision has the potential to ignite the struggle between vampire and werewolf. With her graduation quickly approaching, Bella is confronted with the most important decision of her life.

The Last Airbender (5th August 2010)
Air, Water, Earth, Fire. Four nations tied by destiny when the Fire Nation launches a brutal war against the others. A century has passed with no hope in sight to change the path of this destruction. Caught between combat and courage, Aang (Noah Ringer) discovers he is the lone Avatar with the power to manipulate all four elements. Aang teams with Katara (Nicola Peltz), a Waterbender, and her brother, Sokka (Jackson Rathbone), to restore balance to their war-torn world. Based on the hugely successful Nickelodeon animated TV series, the live-action feature film “The Last Airbender” is the opening chapter in Aang’s struggle to survive.

Despicable Me (8th July 2010)
In a happy suburban neighborhood surrounded by white picket fences with flowering rose bushes, sits a black house with a dead lawn. Unbeknownst to the neighbors, hidden deep beneath this home is a vast secret hideout. Surrounded by an army of tireless, little yellow minions, we discover Gru (Steve Carell), planning the biggest heist in the history of the world. He is going to steal the moon (Yes, the moon!) in Universal’s new 3-D CGI feature, Despicable Me. Gru delights in all things wicked. Armed with his arsenal of shrink rays, freeze rays and battle-ready vehicles for land and air, he vanquishes all who stand in his way. Until the day he encounters the immense will of three little orphaned girls who look at him and see something that no one else has ever seen: a potential Dad. One of the world’s greatest super-villains has just met his greatest challenge: three little girls named Margo, Edith and Agnes.

Jonah Hex (17th June 2010)
Jonah Hex (Josh Brolin) is a scarred drifter and bounty hunter of last resort, a tough and stoic gunslinger who can track down anyone…and anything. Having survived death, Jonah’s violent history is steeped in myth and legend, and has left him with one foot in the natural world and one on the “other side.” His only human connection is with Leila (Megan Fox), whose life in a brothel has left her with scars of her own. But Jonah’s past is about to catch up with him when the U.S. military makes him an offer he can’t refuse: in exchange for his freedom from the warrants on his head, he must track down and stop the dangerous terrorist Quentin Turnbull (John Malkovich). But Turnbull, who is gathering an army and preparing to unleash Hell, is also Jonah’s oldest enemy and will stop at nothing until Jonah is dead. Based on the legendary graphic novel, “Jonah Hex” is an epic adventure thriller about one man’s personal quest for redemption against the vast canvas of the battle between good and evil.

The Sorcerer's Apprentice (22nd July 2010)
Walt Disney Studios, producer Jerry Bruckheimer and director Jon Turteltaub, the creators of the “National Treasure” franchise, present THE SORCERER'S APPRENTICE -- an innovative and epic comedy adventure about a sorcerer and his hapless apprentice who are swept into the center of an ancient conflict between good and evil. Balthazar Blake (NICOLAS CAGE) is a master sorcerer in modern-day Manhattan trying to defend the city from his arch-nemesis, Maxim Horvath (ALFRED MOLINA). Balthazar can't do it alone, so he recruits Dave Stutler (JAY BARUCHEL), a seemingly average guy who demonstrates hidden potential, as his reluctant protégé. The sorcerer gives his unwilling accomplice a crash course in the art and science of magic, and together, these unlikely partners work to stop the forces of darkness. It'll take all the courage Dave can muster to survive his training, save the city and get the girl as he becomes THE SORCERER'S APPRENTICE. The screenplay is by Matt Lopez and Doug Miro & Carlo Bernard from a screen story by Matt Lopez and Larry Konner & Mark Rosenthal.

` easy busy

2010-06-25T12:43:00.004+08:00

woahh, been busy this week full of activity! =) Simply just love this kind of life! This is my life~

Tuesday; around 2300hrs, went rounding with Andy on his bike! Luvs the fast feelin and of coz excitin! ^^ reached home at around 0230hrs..
we started from my house to Changi to makan den slack awhile and back home..

Wednesday; went drinkin with Oyster and Gracie at Arena Country Club.. ii reached at around 2330hrs den watched soccer for awhile den after it ended, we started singing =)
stay there until 0300hrs.. reached home and toh on bed liao le..

Thursday; went rounding again~ tiis time was with car group at around Yishun Dam. ^^ muahahahas! those guys seriously make my day that day.. reached home at around 0300hrs~ ♥ the car, ♥ the engine, ♥ the exhaust and ♥ THEM!!

dinnn really take photo this few dayys.. wahahahahas~ nthh to take but next time ii will take the pics of their modify cars! ^^ *Totally forget to take =.=*
but will update the photo soon i got the time..

AND is Friday again! I ♥ FRIDAY! will be going to Malaysia again~ muahahas!
Saturday going for Movie! and Sunday rest at home!

blues`

2010-06-22T12:24:00.007+08:00

indeed blues for the every start of the week..
Lack of sleep; exercise; fun; money & luvvs ._.
go to work at the same time` doing the same things at work of coz~

nn` yesterday, on my way to work at the normal PIE expressway, one Motorcyclist got hit by the car (i guessed) and his whole leg was bleeding.. i felt so scared and feel pain for the PAIN! goshh! >.<>crap about that MC siol~
All asked me why interested in him? Me: just wanna know him for he's a joker? :P

so sweet of him to add me in facebook! ;)

after work, reached home` ii lie on my bed and rest awhile before going to catch my movie 'The A-Team' at 1900hrs...
meet up with `Fries and watched the movie with him, found that he cannot sit till! But who cares larr, movie was nice can le! ^^

Give it a rating at 4/5 (muahahahas)
is a 2hrs show.

After the show went to eat WENDY'S! My first time eating it, quite nice oh!

ii eat Shimp Burger.. ^^

after the meal ii went back to my house area meet my primary sch mates..

theyy verii bad! donn wanna look at the cam! Roarrrs!~!

den around 2330hrs, MingHui joined the supper too! =)

den we sua tui at around 0030hrs~

e` weekend madness!

2010-06-20T20:32:00.013+08:00

BEFORE VIEWING VIDEO, PLEASE SWITCH OFF UR PHONE AND OF COZ MUSIC FROM MY BLOG FOR BETTER QUALITY~ BLAST UR SOUND AS IT MIGHT GET KINDA SOFT.. ^^

Friday was Dinner&Dance` well, IT WAS FUN! TOTALLY!
when alone, actually wanted Ivan to bring me there but he got something on so never.. haiz..
so i reached there around 1900hrs~
the video was the first programm! how cool is that guy! swee!
all the yummy foods make my hungry stomach full full! ^^
some pics of the foods coz ii was busy lookin at the MC that day so nv took all the 8courses..

the rest are noodles, chicken, fish! ahhh! coz ii was melt by that MC that day!
- The Picture of HIM! -
information about him - http://www.alucasevents.com/artists.asp?s=maguire
http://www.alucasevents.com/
i am so going to organise and invite him over! *MELTS*

some 'PG' image ^^

was jitao ♥ camwhoring at the toilet with Minyee! =)

some videos for ur to enjoy! is really a fun night..

around 2315hrs, time for prize giving` my table got this

so around 0005hrs, took cab back cause going to MeiZhi house for another part of fun this weekend!
ii reached home at around 0030hrs.. (tiink so bahs) den reached MeiZhi house at around 0045hrs coz ii went with Andy..
Had some talk in car which make me emo lar.. donn wanna say liao.. ='(

Glad that he finally chat so much with them ^^
went there to celebrate Kelvin's Birthday! Wanted to celebrate Serene Birthday as well de but she went to AhMa house so nv join us. =(
There were` MeiZhi; BingJie; KokKiong; ZhenYang; Kelvin; MinYee; Andy; Me
den we started by giving 7½shots to Kelvin, and he is still awake! power ah~!~!
I FORGOTTEN TO TAKE PICTURES!! Zzzz~
den we watch Soccer, chit-chat, eat cakes and WuXiang..
Gosh! guess all got no mood to drink coz they bought the wrong liquors?!
den we go off at around 0420hrs. wanted to walk home alone but they wouldnt let. just wanna cool my mind only. >.<
Home, den bed at 0500hrs..
Morning woke up at 1000hrs den go to work..
nv charge my phone! T-T
when about to go out, batt was 54% -COL-
worked from 1600hrs to 2230hrs (sians sia) coz work at Hougang! FAR dao~
den hurried to Bugis to meet Lingz` coz she jio sing K.. otw my phone flat! lucky i got bring another phone if not don nid to meet her liao le..
that place was called 'TopONE KTV' room was at 6th floor..
Singing session - 11:00pm to 05:00am
Sing with her and 2 of her frens, they no intro to me their name..
i reached there around 0030hrs, de best part is her 2 frens was clubbing queen! woahh, Sing till 0130hrs den go powerhouse! den back at 0400hrs..
after awhile they went off.. so we sang till 0500hrs.
PAID 29dollars` cheap mahs? free flow of drinks.. but seriously their drinks suxs..
after that went to eat McD! BIG BREAKFAST! ♥
reached MRT station at around 0600hrs, board the train at 0618hrs and i SERIOULY CANT BELIEVE that the train is packed of people on Sunday morning.. *bow to them*
Reached home at 0700hrs at Bed at 0715hrs..

- Wilds Weekend -

end.ED

2010-06-18T00:38:00.009+08:00

wat iie did the most horrible thiin iis to cry at office yesterday afternoon, when i recevied his msges..

~~+6598702700: Do you want me to stop contacting you? Please tell me from bottom of your heart.. I don't want to know about your nonsense..~~

ME: Yes, HELL YES.. Go away..! Stop disturbing my life.. I hate you. Do you understand. I'm a slut do you understand? U got so much time go do your own stuff and mind my business. Fuck off from me. Dont come saying wanna cover back, cover wat? No way man.. No way you can cover at all. Cover all the pain for me lars.. Fucker. Dont come saying nonsense to me, since i'm a nonsense to you den you dont bother. I am better off without you and I BELIEVE YOU DO LIVE BETTER WITHOUT ME.

+6598702700: No ok.. I'm not living any better without you k.. I just wanted you back not for anything or what ever.. If you think i'm a nonsense than i got nothing to say.. But you're not a slut, no more that childish thinking of me.. Than i won't cover back everything.. If that's what you want.. In the end still like this.. I really wanted to talk back.. But what more should i talk.. I don't want to be the one that's always right like last time.. If you really wanted to live your live like that than i don't bother you anymore le ba..

`after the Kbox thingy yesterday, i went out again for supper with daddy.. he is back in Singapore! so lucky when i reached the coffeeshop, i saw those people which he always hang out with.. guess they must have told him that i'm with a guy.. W a T E v E r ~
so that's might the nonsense he is refering to..

hell me, why am ii still cryin at this time; he said he wont bother me anymore.. isnt it all i wanted.. yah, it was all i wanted when i told myself i nv wanted to see him or reply to any of his msges anymore..
ii really felt lost.. after replyin all the junks` - l o s t -
best part; i dont know what the hell i'm cryin for and ya, my dam tears keep rollin down my cheek..
alot of things, alot` been wanting to say out but i got lost of my soul..
been tryin my best to do my part but still not happy about it?!
every fairytale comes with a happy ending, isnt it..
NOT MINE!
mine is not a fairytale with handsome prince charming nor a story with happily ever after..
it was just a small wrong move. just that wrong move for me to fall deeply in love with him.
how i wish time and turn back, turn us all back so i can fullfill things i wanted to do last time and not to torture myself in this kind of manner..
ii nv tot of a day whereby i will hate uu this badly when ii love uu deeply once`
uu always nv fullfill wat uu told me, i forgive, i really did.
uu always care ur frens more then me, i understand, i really did.
and now` uu always make me cry for no reason which i dont understand why..

nv will ever be the same anymore.. DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!
what if i come back, what do we both gain?
ii did lose uu once and ii know when uu are back, uu wont be the guy ii first met.
so what if now uu arent by my side? it just make be stay stronger for what i'm use to be.
uu nv tried ur best to understand me until uu finally lose me, what's the point?
- a broken glass cant be fixed -
where were uu when ii needed uu the most?
why do uu want to lie to me when i trusted uu the most?
what am ii to uu whenn i love uu the most?

guess i'm just a fool` i always tot i found the someone that i always like..
i tot the someone love me too..
i tot the someone will be there no matter what..
i tot the someone wont lie to me no matter what..
I THOUGHT........

maybe we wasnt meant to be together..
so, either one have to let go.. and since i did the opening; i will end it as well.
~ Time to Forget him AGAIN ~

listen tuu moii heart or feel moii soul`

2010-06-17T01:11:00.010+08:00

-ii simply ♥ the wordings-

ii tot ii was kinda free at office today so ii slowly do my things, din noe end up, woahhhs! scannin scannin again T__T
den ii got new signature! =)

Family day today! lubbs it! miss sister~
but ii have to go to jurong point to buy clothing for D&D this friday~ picture will reveal on Friday! wahahahs! :P

dress; $55.90
belt; $29.90
braclet; $5.00
ring; $ 7.95

gosh!! total cost - 98.75dollar siol~
mii still aiming hard to save money.. T-T
-for car license
-hui hui =)
-studies (maybe bahs)
-trips! overseas!

after all the shoppin, went to Kbox to siing!
coz Kiong and his frens there and he say can join le.. =x
Singing make me high! i still like to sing! lalalalala~!~! =)
and got to pay 8dollar5cent, ii tink is worth it! ;)

rainnin` same goes my heart

2010-06-16T12:54:00.004+08:00

iss rainnin tiis morninn, does iit reflect to my mood as ii cried yesterday.
hope no..
ytd wanna ask my friends out for supper to at least make my feelin better, but no respond..

~Actually~
Lingz` did ask me out for movie to watch A-Team
Fabian` did have supper going on still
Me` did ask moii primary sch mates but in the end i cancelled it.

i'm tired; nv got any days to slp early, nv have any time for myself..
i'm sad; him, why doesnt he hate mii.. how iie wishh iie wouldnt care`
how ii wishh i'm lyiin to myself, brainwashin to myself to sayy ii'm not tiinkin abt the past anymore.
BUT is because of all the past ii walked thru make me wat ii am now.
i felt so hopeless` nowhere to go` no mood to talk`
just lyinn and givin myself my life to carry on.. wAt Is ThIs MaN~!

yesterday` reached home as per normal, HOMEd at 1730hrs..
Went to fetch HuiHui at 1815hrs; deposit cheque; buy newspaper
around 1835hrs meet up with Ivan to chat chat as he was around Jurong..
moii daddy still missing in action! haven heard from him since 2weeks liao~
reached home at around 1930hrs, watched tv.
waitin for my turn to use computer as brother playin..
was so freakin tired at 2030hrs, i went to parent room to take a nap, woke up at 2130hrs!
goshh! forgotten to msg them(primary sch mates) that the supper to cancel coz no one was free i supposed?! so when i view thru the msg seein them callin and msg me, i was still tired to go out so cancelled..
den ii went back to my room to my bed, lying down there thiinkin of things and tears started flowing as i slowly comma in tiredness...
at midnite, some of the supper gang called up but ii tiink ii was too freakin tired knowin that my phone was ringing..
ii slept till today at around 5am den woke up.. xD
wat a great day with a great weather.. -rights?- *laughs*

stress free ya` =x

2010-06-15T01:30:00.006+08:00

ii am so going to get stress and tired soon..
the more ii tiink de more stress ii become, yep`who donn wanna get rich..
commitment; Commitment; CommitmenT~
goshh. mii have 24hrs a day, 6hrs to orhorh = 18hrs to spend
18hrs - 11hrs(full-time job) = 7hrs
7hrs - 2hrs(poo, pee, makan, bath) = 5hrs
5hrs?? work part time or go out to play?

uu work uu earn; uu play uu spend

uu work uu lose frens; uu play uu gain more frens

uu work uu gain knowledge; uu play uu gain nothinn

uu work uu get tired; uu play uu also get tired

aiyoyoyoyo~

but moi fren really put in her 100% to teach me,

explain all the details..

i shouldnt disappoint her and prove to others that i can do it right..

BUT`

i wan time for my family member..

mii now is 一个头两个大~ =(

so i gave my fren a promise to work till 7July,

if still no results, i am going to resign

better to lead my normal life then busyin here and there~

BOOOOHS!

ya, is true that ii haven forgotten him`

but why isit everytime ii wanted to forget him

he appeared? why?

i tired ways, is hard.. so hard

since he is seeing someone he like, why still bothering me?!

give me a space to breath..

spare me a moment of peacefulness..

ii really don wanna talk back wat ii have walked before

because of him. ALL because of him!

`love to forgive people so that will feel gulity`

hate people to make them tink u are a baddie...

what DO he REALLY want FROM me?

shoo off will u, leave me like wat u did before can!

at least ii will feel better, at least ii know uu wasnt caring anymore

at least ii know uu are lying to me sayin that ~~u loved me~~~

Movie`

2010-06-13T11:43:00.008+08:00

Went movie with my primary school mates this morning and my ex tagging along~
well, he was kinda tired and keep keeping quiet.. ROARS!

Attendence for Movie Gathering on 14 June 2010, 01:00am 'The Karate Kid'
1. Mei Fang
2. Kok Kiong
3. Bing Jie
4. Serene
5. Zhen Yang
6. Xuan Zhi
7. Min Yee
8. Dominic (Serene's boyfren)
9. Andy (moii fren)

- The Karate Kid -
2hr20mins show
Rating: 4/5

after the movie i went home~
and the rest went to supper, guess they slack till very early bahs..

reached home at 0400hrs and slept.. ^^

*some unhappy things lor..*
dont really like people asking whose going..
if u wanna come den come, if not dont come.. -simple right-
i mean ya, i know they wanna know how many people going, whose going to avoid certain things
i understand~ i totally understand!!! But they should know already, just that is more or less. Zzzz~
If less i wont organize liao le mahs, must know i treat people very good de.. ^^V GOSHH!
cant help it but to get mad at this kind of issue.. WHY! >.<>

Thk`s Guanyinma it's Friday!

2010-06-12T14:20:00.026+08:00

iie LOVES FRIDAEE~ wherr happenin stuffs fall on this day! wooooo-whoooooo!~!
after moii full-time work, went home slack a bit and went to work by cab with cost me SevenDollarEightyCent`(let's not talk about it since i wanna quit already)

after finishinn part-time job at 2300hrs, rush back home by train top up TenDollar` yet i earn zero.. >.<
reached home at 2330hrs, lucky still got time to change~ and some are the things that iie did`

bathe
remove nails colour
write white card
fold my clothes
watch tv with mummy

Before i knew it, it was like 0020hrs and still no call from my peeps, so i laid down at bed feelin heavy and sleepy.. SUDDENLY~ *ringtone - Zoosk Girl*
time to go down!! JayyyBeee trip for supper!!! (tagging along are` Fabian; Sally; Grace; Serene(Grace's fren) and miie..

reached at around 0130hrs.. ordering the food and found that menu changed..
COVER

BACK

iie forget the name that iie makan coz Fabian ordered for miie..
so while eatin iie play with my camera`

comes the food.. ate nasi`
den got fried bun (my favourate) and roti john~ Satisfy!!! =D
was waitin for 0230hrs the soccer match..
Soo they started ShisSha~

while waitinn i snap around again..

all the flags~

in the end NOHAB soccer there! coz they never subscribe >.<

Fabian was disappointed..

den at around 0330hrs we left to wash car and pump oil

After all the everything was around 0430hrs and back to SG~
yupps` reached home at 0500hrs =)

♥ . ♥ . ♥ luvvs ♥ . ♥ . ♥

2010-06-10T18:51:00.006+08:00

ENDING a relationship is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream.

“We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn’t give us the license to own a person. This is what love means…sacrifice.”

“Often times we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesnt mean that we’ve stopped loving them or we’ve stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.”

“Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can’t have them, but it’s worse when you thought you didn’t want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can’t live without them.”

“Deep in my heart, I’m suffering, knowing that I’ve lost you. On the outside, I’m living, pretending that I’ve forgotten you.”

“A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you’re free from any pain, but your hands are empty.”

“How can I promise you forever when tomorrow is so far away from me? How can I dry your tears when I have a bleeding heart inside of me? How can I ever forget you when your name is etched so deep within me?”

“They say no matter how dark the night is, the sun always rises again… I say lost love makes one realize that no matter how bright the day is, the sun will always set again.”

“A heart breaking isn’t always as loud as a bomb exploding.. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling.. And the most painful thing is, no one really hears it, except you..”

“Who do you run to when the only person who can make you stop crying, is exactly the one who is making you cry?“

“TRUE lOVE is like ghosts, which everyone talks about and few have SEEN.”

mood` eMo

2010-06-09T13:11:00.005+08:00

feelinn eMo is a very hard thinn..
the way uu treat people issh all so fake`
not that i wanna be emo.. just that somethinn is not rite.. i'm not sure wat.
but yah, missin smthinn~?
not him but miss the life it was before..
how sad can i be.. beinn with frens; in the office; home; outside hanginn out..
just felt bored. not the same anymore. why?

so scared that i lose them yet being ignored by them?!
so afraid that i dont know how to live on.. it suxs

life still goes on right.. =(